Monday, September 23, 2013

God Completes What He Starts

I struggle with bouts of insomnia when I'm under high levels of stress. Anxiety keeps me wide awake with the wheels churning in my brain for hours on end. It's exhausting.

Last night was one of those nights. I was beaten down from a long and frustrating week, exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. 

For the first time since starting my business I asked God to take it away. No more. I have no more to give. No more hope left. It's just too hard and I have no more fight left in me. I don't know what God saw in me when he called me to do this? 

Then this morning, I open my Bible app and this verse pops up:

"And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Christ Jesus" 
Philippians 1:6

And just like that God gives me a little bit more strength. A glimmer of hope is restored. I remember that it's ok that I don't have it all together. It's ok because it's about me. It's about God, and the work he is doing in me, and through me, and that God alone will bring this to completion.


So what is my job in all of this? It's my job to step out of the boat. It's NOT my job to figure out how in the world I'm supposed to walk on the water. Just step out of the boat. No matter how scary, how impossible, how ridiculous it may seem. No matter how inferior I feel. 

Step out of the boat and trust that God will complete the work he has started in me.

Wishing you all health, hope, & happiness
Abby